Self doubts suck……there is no way around it!!!……and I don’t care who you are, rich/poor, old/young, wise/dumb or even dumber they will come around to check you out……to see what is really going on in that mind of yours…….the past week they have taken up residence in my mind…..pitched a tent…set up shop……and had a full blown self doubt party in my mind……at first I thought that they were just stopping in for a quick visit….i was tired so once I got some sleep and rest they would leave……wrong!……so I started doing everything that Dr. Glen Walter, the Ta Da guy, and supreme commander tells people to do in his inspirational workshops…….guess what?……nothing worked!!!……those self doubts kept munching away at my self confidence…..self doubts suck!!!……by the way, that would make a great bumper sticker!……..so I did the only thing left to do……..I said, “screw it…you guys are here so just make yourself at home and knock yourself out….I will just remind myself who I am and who I was created to be”…..I will just continue to carry on my daily routine with self doubt construction going on in my mind and remember every so often that I was created by divine light to be light……and to share my light with others……we are all here to share our light and love to brighten the way for our fellow ‘self doubters’ who for whatever reason have forgotten or covered up their own light………so I quit trying to get rid of those sucky self doubts……I quit trying to beat them….to overpower them…….or to trick them into leaving…..I just quietly tried to remember the truth of who I am…….the truth of what I was created to do……and the truth of how we all need to use our light to brighten others’ paths and to use the light of others to brighten our own path……..so thanks self doubt for reminding me of that ………but guys, self doubt still sucks!!!
Jul 262010
So nicely put. And, if you didn’t have self-doubts, you don’t have blood flowing through your viens nor air in your lungs…you aren’t human. It’s these doubts and fears that make us human, and working through them that makes us evolve.
The Dalai Lama said that we need to appreciate our enemies (in this case, self-doubts) because they teach us so much about ourselves, especially patience and love. Tara Brach, in her book, Radical Acceptance, suggests that when we get these little monkeys in our head that chip away at our sense of self worth, to treat it as you would an intrusive thought you have whilst meditating….and gently allow it to float past as you say, “….and that too…..”
If we push at it, trying to force these thoughts from our consciousness, we may create counter-resistance (I think this may be a law of physics…maybe not, but it should be!) and the negative thoughts and their accompanying feelings about ourselves will push back even harder. You’re so right to just let them be, and add to the mix your gentler and far more compassionate thoughts of love and truth.